i am proud of all my frnds and of all the ppl who managed to survive skool the way i did!

rain yaps:

everyone has their own views abt how life is valued (parents excluded). if the person thinks that life is valued based upon ur good deeds then so it is for him. he will like u or not like u based on tht. theres nthn u can do abt it. in the long run of life nobody is gona ask u wat u scored in ur skool or college. ur personality is your identity, ur qualification's not ur identity.

on the other hand ur parents may not be very happy wid ur performance bcoz they noe ur worth more. and tht ur better than wat u think u are. but that is tht and i cannot explain the parents behaviour. the first time wen i won a position in an art competition, i stood second. wen i told ma dad abt it, he asked,'why didn't u come first?' my heart was broken into a million pieces! it probably wasnt right for him to say tht. but in the long run, does it even matter to me?

never expect anything out of anyone or anyone out of anything or anything out of anything.

becoz facts (most of the time) prove expectations wrong.

i dint expect anything out of my exams, and maybe thats why i had a pleasant surprise. now wen i think back i know i would expect abt 90+ percent in my boards (i scored 87.4% to be exact). i wouldve been very disappointed so i decided that its better to stop thinkin abt it.

if anybody asked me wat i expect i'd cut them in their sentence and say out loud 'i dont expect anything, i don't expect anything, i dont expect anything' lol...it was pretty funny coz tht person wud start starin at me. wat tht person dint noe is tht if i answered the question it wud really set me thinkin.

im not tryina prove any point here, im just tokin.

to tell u the truth, i really wish id get abt 90% in boards. i think none of us are happy with wat we hav. i mean all us living beings. we're such losers, lol.

life writes:

ok m not exactly THAT excited about my results but whatever. i got 80.4%, which according to my friends is good enuff, but my mum is not very thrilled. as for me, i seriously COULD not care less anymore.

because somebody has told me that they r proud of me. and tht means alot to me. so...

I

DONT

CARE.

GOD KNOWS KAISE KARAM KIYE MAINE APNE PICHLE JANAM MEIN KI MUJHE AISE PHAL MILE! :D:D

RAIN SCREAMS TO THE WORLD:

I AM SOOOOOOO SMART I DINT NOE LOLLLLL

oki.. urmm..i got 87.4% in my 12th board exams and thas like so cool! im standing second in my school and my photo is gona be in the newspaper 2moro!

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHA

life writes:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......... only THIRTY minutes to go!!!! shit, i am so nervous!!! don noe wht to do. is there nethin i can do??


nothin i guess.

oh god.

rain writes..

my heads hurting real bad. i don't know why exactly.

results are at 6:30am 23rd may 2006. is that why my head hurts? no..lol.. yea ryt!..

i tried callin aisha, and she of course isn't calling bac for some reason.. il b awake all night..i want to..

oki aisha jus called and shes gone go for a walk and then probably come online in abt one hour. sara
s stayin over at her place, haha don't noe how her dad agreed to it.

i remember 10th grade board exams were so much fun and the morning results were declared i was like sleeping and aisha called me up. it was very dramatic and exciting but i really cant explain coz my heads hurting.

from the diaries of rain:

a blank point
a blank moment
the blank eyes of that woman
she sat in the rain
held on to herself
she shivered within her thoughts
it was a pause
a long pause
she was to wait
and that's all there was
she waited and waited
for time to come
desire secretly made notes in her heart

still and engrossed in her memories
she made no escape for the shelters
she kept to her promise
she remained in that place
and awaited for the moment
she thought she knew
that he would come
and get her out of tht very scene
but, he was late
her heart was sinking
in the pool that the
rain and the tears create

copyright 2004 nehal ahmed

life writes:

to those who have read it: did u ACTUALLY have nothing better to do????


to those who havent: trust ME and dont waste ur time readin it!! dont trust nehal, coz thts wht i did n i am regretting it.

heeheehoohoohahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha........

rain writes: naa.. not a very different story. but bastardino is cumin to GET u coz he had jus begun reading the book and he really thanks u to giv the whole story away JUST LIKE THT.

to ppl who have read it: i noe u feel like the way bastardino feels ryt now

and those who havnt: i think tht 'the alchemist' changed my life.

life writes: now tht nehal has mentioned paulo coelho, i would like to tell u guys about my experience readin one of his books titled, 'the alchemist'.

i go to school one day(gawd, seems like ages ago!!)... and i see nehal readin this book called 'the alchemist' and this is how it went:

aish: oh i hav tht book at home, is it nice??
hal: aisha it is the MOST AWESOME book in the world. u HAVE to read it.
aish: oh ok. doesnt look amazin.

but whtever, if u get such a strong recommendation for a book, thn u HAV to read it... n thts wht i did. i got back home n started readin...

the first chapter was nothin but CRAP!! the second chapter was ALSO nothin but CRAP!!!

i kept readin thinkin tht there will b a part where it wud actualy get interestin... but i was SO wrong!!!

i asked nehal if she was kiddin about the book... shes like: U DONT LIKE IT???? :O :O :O

and m like: U LIKE IT???????? :O :O :O

see thats how different we can be.

neway let me tell u exactly wht the book is about...


its about some dumb spanish shepherd guy who is tryin 2 realise his dream. he goes all the way 2 egypt 2 the pyramids n finds out tht the treasure is at some church back in spain!! how dumb!!!
i mean, talk abt bein lame!! the sun, the wind, the hand n god knows wht else r talkin 2 him in the end. he travels thru the desert n finds the woman of his dreams, who is a 'woman of the desert' n sum CRAP!!

m sure nehal will have a different story to tell.. but dont believ her, she's lying.

lol.

i forgot wht i was goin to write. lol.

rain writes: well, jus for ur information 'miss life'. MY LIFE ISN'T POINTLESS. (the word life in my last sentence does not mean 'aisha' BTW)

yes yes, the pics all okay.

actually. its nice :D

bastradino was jumpin up and down lookin at it. he said 'jumana looks HOT in it!' i jus didn't care to pay any attention to his mindless jokes. he's all about the sarcasm that there is in this world. wat a silly twit. and yeah, while ur reading this jus make sure the f**ker doesnt jump on u, grip ur shoulder and rip off a bit of flesh.

well, yes aish i noe that your look probably says 'nehal, you do know that u hav lost it, ryt?'

and the answer is : yes, i do aisha.

ur the only person in my life ryt who i can safely say 'i do' to widout thinkin of future consequences. becoz i noe ur strait. :P

well, not like im surrounded by lesbians or anything but the ppl who were eligible to hear a i do frm me until recently have vanished. i am not pointing at living persons at all. im tokin abt my day dream heros.

as to why day dream heros have vanished i shall explain to u. basically, i feel like ive just woken up from the longest dream of my life. i have woken up to a 'real-life'.

and i am not completely awake as yet. im a lil dreamy still.

nights have also becum a lil sleepless. i tell my frnd on the phone to hang up at 1:30 in the night sayin tht im real sleepy. as soon as im hung up upon, im wide awake. thinkin, not thinkin, staring into total darkness wondering of what i am doin and how these actions contribute to my life (and if they do at all)

i had a talk wid apa and sammy the other day (on two separate occassions) and i told them tht i am so bored and i have nthn to do at all. they said: u must read. i just made lame excuses to them.

i then spoke to bhaiya this friday, i asked him abt his college life tht he led back then and how he managed alone.

he did not lecture me, he jus simply spoke. he, being the person who inspires me the most in my life, i wudnt miss any opputunity to simply listen to wat he said and think abt it.

abt his inspiring me, im not inspired to becum like he is. im jus simply inspired.


i grabbed a few points and came to a conclusion wid his talk abt the most memorable time in his life.

1. u can read a lot, u can read volumes and volumes of books and things, but u can never ever read enough.
2. he says he started readin when he began college and now being 34 yrs of age and having read more than I can imagine, he says tht he began reading too late
3. read watever is in ur hand. read watever is at hand. jus absorb like a sponge. read pulp. read good stuff. read complete rubbish. but, read.
4. college life begins and frm then on all decisions in YOUR life are YOUR own. ur destiny is in ur hands.
5. never again in ur life will u get tht sort of energy and enthusiasm to do things. if u channelize ur energy you will always get something in the end.
6. always aim to get value of the price you pay. price you pay: not be urself and try to impress other and look cool, value you get: nothing more than sum selfish 'frnds'. price you pay: be urself, be focused, be determined, make goals and achieve them, value u get: probably even more than u paid.
7. wat u giv is wat u get
8. don't get distracted, there will be loads of distractions. u don need to get distracted. u dont NEED to get distracted to get wat u want frm life.
9. u can party ALL ur life, why would u waste tym partyin in the most productive time in ur life.

he tells me now, tht he was never cool material in his college days. he was himself. and now ppl of the 'cool' category at college are either his juniors at work or come to him for work.

and to tell u the truth, i think i love my brother a lil more than b4, jus becoz he thot tht i was worth being told abt his experience and learning frm life.

and yeah, im reading 'eleven minutes' by paulo coehlo ryt now.

i think this picture rocks!!!
this was on jumana's bday, we went to the beach... this particular beach is called umm suqeim beach and it is my MOST favorite place in the world (city centre being the second.haha)

this picture was taken by jumana. maybe tht wud explain why sara's face looks so big. and cudnt she wait for me to open my eyes. idiot. but i think thts wht makes me LOVE this picture. thanks jumana, kuch toh kaam aayi.

hiii....
this is the first time m writing in this blog or any blog, for tht matter... so basically, i have no clue wht to write.nehal was online jus now, i thot i wud ask her wht to write, but i think she knew i wud bug her alot n therefore shes gone...not tht she wud tell me.. 'JUS WRITE', she tells me..not tht i care wht m writing coz the point of this blog is jus as pointless as mine and nehals life..

haha.

rain and silver pearl chat extract:

J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
hey
wats dis foot in the mouth
r u mad????????????????????????????????????
kya baqwaas kar rahi hai??????????????
oye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nehal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is somthin wrong ....kuch hua ghar pe..........
the beautiful queen! says:
arre
read everything
idiot
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
lol

ok
i din get it

the beautiful queen! says:
wat?
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
i m confused
foot in mouth
errand
wats it al abt
the beautiful queen! says:
foot in my mouth means
apne pair me kulhadi
pe*
like AA BAIL MUJHE MAAR
thas foot in my mouth
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
like datttttttttttttttttttt

the beautiful queen! says:
IDIOT
lol
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
lolllllll
the beautiful queen! says:
http://aishalbe.blogspot.com/
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
i m checkin it
the beautiful queen! says:
k
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
its niceeeee
the beautiful queen! says:
lol
basically aishalbe is a blog for me and aisha stories..
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
u created it
the beautiful queen! says:
wat?
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
as in u created tht site
the beautiful queen! says:
yups
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
ok koooool
the beautiful queen! says:
u noe why its aishalbe..
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
ya
aisha
hal
the beautiful queen! says:
remember our pledge
i shall be
J U M A N A ! ! !- lifes a big bore........ says:
oh ya
the beautiful queen! says:
LOL
yea..
i used to look at aisha at tht time and say 'aisha'll be..faithful blah blah'


well, the sunday morning assembly was such a big bore that we'd laugh and laugh about everything standing in line. when the pledge was said. i'd look at aisha and recite

'aisha'll be faithful in doing my duties, my this, my that blah blah..

since i was against telling lies in public, HOW could i ever say I SHALL BE FAITHFUL?
:O

rain writes: hey aish. today is semin's birthday. she turns 3 today.

let me intorduce you to bastradino. he just came from new york to live with me. hes such a kamina. :D



everyone say hello to bastardino. u dunno wat he'll do otherwise. look at him GRRRR.lol

aisha means life. nehal means beautiful and rainy. i wonder wat bastardino means. :P

rain writes: today i jus put my foot in my mouth and chewed it till it bled.

neda came into the room a few minutes back and asked if we had honey in the house. so i told her the address and followed her till the kitchen with my foot in my mouth!

"it's in the kitchen, but just don't be seen with it 'coz it's not ours it's dad's. it's really sweet, we eat it chori chori (without him knowing) hehe. we ate it with... OH SHIT!.. NO WAY.. he's in the house? DAMN! WTF.. GREAT!"

yes, that's exactly how. she should have let me complete the last sentence. 'we ate it with pancakes that day, we never eat it otherwise!'

i am so NOT cool now.

lol.

just before the foot-in-mouth event i had run a great errand for him and i was COMPLETELY proud of it. i hope that atleast that errand shall cancel out the foot-in-mouth! you know, positive and negative cancellation.